Dinosaurs!

Cleanse Day 3
It's going good and I totally don't feel hungry (amazing)! I was talking with my BEST friend who tried this cleanse a while back and on day 3 she lost it, stopped by the gas station, bought and ate and entire bag of crappy Lay's potato chips! I think it's totally a mind over matter kind of thing, and I'm really focused right now, so it isn't a problem. Keep those fingers crossed!

The last two days I wasn't able to work out at 6am, so I went mid day to get it in. My body does not work the same later, I was more tired, my mind was distracted, and I felt winded the whole time...crazy! 6am is the time for me and I am more than happy to wake up now feeling a real difference!

Along with working out I want to create a healthy meal plan for when this is over. I keep thinking about meat: beef, chicken, turkey, etc and how often we eat it. Pretty yuck, but I know that when we eat pork I'm more gassy, so why eat it?

Then today my sons were watching Dinosaur Train, and Dr. Dr.Scott Sampson said that Argentinosaurus' are like humans, we are both herbivores! If you look at our teeth they are both flat for chewing plants and leaves! LIGHT BULB MOMENT! We will be eating more leafy greens and less fleshy products!!

TA-DA we are off for our evening swim!

My Freak Out!

I have not told anyone about this blog except for my sister and mom, and yesterday I received a very sweet and encouraging message from a dear friend I haven't seen in 15years and had a mini-panic attack and made the site private! I thought about "what if things don't change, what if I fail, what if I stay fat, what if..."

Isn't that the point of ALL of this??? Of course it is! Everyone knows me, knows what I look like, and it cannot get any worse than it is so who cares??? NOT ME any more!! I'm no longer afraid of "someone" seeing this! I welcome one and all to view, to comment, to maybe even be inspired!

Day 2 of the detox: fantastic! not hungry, just mind over matter!

HUZZAH as my dear aunt says! I'm off to the gym!

It's Detox Time!

Okay, so this is me, seriously the only pictures of just me in the last 3 months! Always cropping the lower half out, skin tone grey, hair almost always out of control. I have learned to just smile real big in hopes others won't see how I feel or notice my size. Of course they can! Who do I think I am kidding? Every summer I am out absorbing the sun and I say "Of course I'm going to play in my swimsuit with my kids, they can already see what I look like, I might as well enjoy myself!" But really, who is enjoying when you're self conscious all the time, pulling tops down, lifting pants back up... in fact... I just remembered pictures from last summer:
































What the....!!!

Of course nobody has seen THESE photo's blogged or on Facebook! Know that I have become even more out of shape with cold weather, depression and December's Daily Pie Making & Eating we threw for, no not the neighborhood, just us! This leads me to today's decision to do a cleanse, knowing that in this body there is a lot of crap food that has been blocked up and any jump start I can give it, I will!

Ingredients:
25-30 lemons, juiced
62 oz of 100% PURE maple syrup
5 gal. of distilled water
1 jar Cayenne pepper
1 box Traditional Medicinals Smooth Move Tea

Recipe:
10 oz Water
2 Tbs Lemon Juice
2 Tbs Syrup
dash Cayenne
*Drink 5-8 glasses of juice a day plus 5-8 glasses of water! Every night before bed drink a cup of tea.

I keep thinking about discipline and self mastery, and how growing up these things really were not taught to me in relation to self, school, work, and I feel this overwhelming duty to teach my two beautiful boys yet need to teach myself first.
Booyah!